Sunday, 6 October 2013

SPLENDID DAYS ARE YET TO COME


Abdicating the home of Great Almighty
With a sigh, the goodbyes were said
Perhaps a new world awaited
Though I was clinging to the belief to be dead

In his vicinity, I seldom had an elusive smile on my face,
However my tears magnified dismay that none could trace

Quickly I took a glimpse of what seemed like the last ever,
While he consoled me by saying he will stay with me forever.

Solemnly I gathered the baffling thoughts, the only luggage I had,
He quietly whispered,"You will see me down there by the name of Mom & Dad."

Tiny eyes widened
Tender hands moved
Swinging the cradle
All eyes on me were glued

Solitude knows no bounds was all that I had ever known,
Greek to me it seemed, the love and affection in this zone

Vanishing thoughts, memories went vague
Suddenly emptiness filled the mind,
Hunger, thirst and pain, new emotions did I find

Enchanting prayers, hymns, lullabies was heard all around me,
Tears in every eye glowed with elation and glee

Gladdest of all were whom I learnt to call Mom & Dad, as far as I remember,
They silently vowed on this auspicious moment to protect their new family member

An infant, like a helpless handicapped has to be taken care of all the time,
little did they know that bringing up a child is not an easy climb

Oblivious of the fact that their fights are tormenting their child,
Their hideous behavior with every passing day grew wild

Now look yonder she said, I turned and saw what seemed like people sent from god,
On learning that I had to live with them, I happily agreed with a nod

A placid place it was, so homely I had never felt,
Surroundings as vibrant as fairy lights made me forget the problems I dealt

Intoxicated by the swanky dinners made me less worrisome about my parent's whereabouts ,
Like a gullible damsel I lost track of the grim questions and doubts

Later I realized that the ostentatious welcoming was a bait,
There were papers lying in the court which were deciding my fate.

I looked at her in despair and exhaled a deep sigh,
She felt the expectant weight of my gaze and let out a cry

smoldered as I went back to my room to stare outside the window,
Flying freely in the magical grand sky were a sparrow and a crow

Being jittery and apprehensive about the changing events, I told myself to pause,
I was not to be a sitting duck and couldn't jeopardize my future due to any cause

Soon she flew to a foreign land from where distance could not be gauged,
Striving hard to face the atrocities of society and life, feeling alienated and caged

A mother-daughter bond happens to be one of the closest of all,
So I gave her strength, held her shaking knees from letting her fall

While I had to put up with the pressures of pre-teen years,
Not everyone in school knew that I had bigger fears

Academics was great, a scholar as I was famously known,
walking the aisle with a blazer and badge, I told her on the phone

I went into ecstasies over my upcoming 12th birthday,
least did I care what was coming my way

As the knife went through the cake, surprises popped up leaving me speechless,
She arrived in a magnificent yellow sari with my new dad, holding his arm in a gentle caress

I shook my head in bewilderment, queer did it sound though,
she was smiling, that's what mattered and I quietly accepted her beau

On the contrary, accepting it was not all that was needed here,
There was enraging anger, vehement fights, bitter moods that I had to bear

The road is rocky, I got to know, more challenges kept on creeping in as I went along,
I smothered my emotions  pretending as if nothing with me was wrong

"I'm sick" , she one day said gloomily, while I was forcing her to eat
She moved her hand feebly towards me, her painted nails looking so beautiful and neat

Depression was making a home inside her, nothing could the doctors do,
Medicines became her escape whenever she felt blue

Then the dreadful day came when everything came to a standstill,
Wrapped up in a white sheet was her cold body as she had taken an overdose of pill

couldn't speak nor move, everything before my eyes was a sight I dint want to believe at all,
Her favorite black and white striped sweater against her fair skin made her look like a doll

I closed my eyes and thought who is my God now, for now my Mom&Dad had left me alone,
Then I glanced at two elderly people who hugged me as I continued to moan

From a little girl growing up to be a lady , after all High School wasn't that easy,
Studies, friends, crushes, To cut it short teenage drama got me busy

The rough paths continued to bring me down but couldn't stop me from going on,
For I could see a dim light which made me want to believe that there was more to life and sad days would be gone 

3 comments:

  1. I AM SO COMPLEXED ! hw could sum1 ur age write soo well ?? i am astonished & blown outta my mind... really heartfelt .. keep writing .. dont rob this world frm ur wonderful writings :) LOVED IT

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  2. One can make out wen a write up comes straight from the heart .... that's wat makes it beautiful .....

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