INSECURITIES

I took my own roads and moved at my own speed,

in the outlandish world like a sprouted seed.

Cringing in horror with concussion so terribly bad,

seeing the sight of treacherous humans and hecklers was sad.

Trying best to stifle the trepidation within me,

changing the cynical view to set myself free.

With stoical courage hiding my rueful smile,

thinking about living in denial for a while.

Sending me in trance, tranquilizer as my drug,

combating a solitary life in my mind that I dug.

The weight of copious failures felt very heavy on my back,

adopting a nonchalant attitude towards life was a test to crack.

Standing on the silver sand, dazzling clear skies above,

hoping for good fortune to smile upon me with love.

Feelings within me were straining to come out,

waves of fantasy rushing through me concealing the doubt.

Everything will be alright, I exclaimed out aloud, 

believing in the silver lining behind the dark cloud.

My voice being tremulous, INSECURITIES filled the heart,

The paradox is that among many people, one is alone from the start.